Old ladies need to stop killing technology

You old ladies at work should just stop trying to pretend you are 14. WTH is up with saying shit like "check you FB, I tagged you in the picture every 5 minutes to each other" and now even joining snapchat and pretending you guys are still relevant in anyways. Noone outside your pathetic little group of old soccer moms cares about how many soccer games your kids are missing or attending. Act your age and just stop embarrassing your children. Seriously Gosh you should try to age gracefully you know. Pleaseeeeee

Watching Youtube like a horder

Although I always feel like I should have more structure in my life, I usually end up cheating my way around my responsible realization.

Such a small thing as sticking to my bed time does not happen easily with me.

I ended up watching Youtube clips about makeup, Vlogs, hauls, relationship advise, etcccccc.

Currently it is 1:23 AM and I am dreading work tomorrow -__-

However I do not want to be a quitter, and I will most likely just head over there tomorrow, try my best to keep distracted, beg that there is some work for me to do and finally keep my inner peace in check as I will very much need it to stand another day with those chicks there plus the pushover Asian kid :[

FML

At the bitches at work

Yeah I am quiet. I know that thank you very much. But what is the point of screaming it for everyone to hear ' This person says you are the quietest person in the company'.

I do not appreciate that the only time you talk to me is to say that.

Do you know why I don't talk to you? Shyness aside I'm someone who get instantly turned off by people who all they can do is gossip and complain outloud about the smallest of tasks given to them.

We are supposed to be in a workplace where we actually need to do work. All you people do is gossip about every single person working with you plus anyone who crosses you in life.

And to add to that. What is the freaking big deal about being quiet? Why do I have to be screaming at the top of my lungs about every single detail about my life to you guys who are not even friends of mine. I find it extremely tiring and two-faced to talk as we are friends when we aren't.

I've had it with all of you. The only thing that allows me to put up with you is the fact that this is jut a job.


Good Riddance and here is to hoping I will soon be able to just leave and your two-face spoiled asses who really can't do more than gossip and spread negativity to anyone who come in contact with you.

Blogging: The lost Art of posting your thought into the Void

Are Blogs still at all popular?

Back in 2007-2010ish~ I remember Blogs being all the rage (Or at least in my head they were).

I was not an avid blog follower, and by that I mean loyal follower. I never really kept up with only one blogger. I abandoned them pretty quickly after their one interesting post I found while surfing the web. But I did enjoy them from time to time.

I always wanted to have one where I actively updated it in a timely manner with interesting and funny posts where people would have intelligent grown-up and hilarious discussions about what I had just wrote =^_^=

 I wanted to be the next big thing The next IT Blogger *_*

But it never happened -________-

I can't really blame anyone for that but me (Of course) because I never stuck with one blog long enough to even attempt to see it walk (Let alone fly on its own). I was never consistent, I didn't even have a theme for any of my failed blogs. For many I didn't update them for months or even years and by then all my inspiration as well as the one or two lurkers I had captivated (lured) were long gone.

But a girl can dream, can't she?

Again and again I tried to revive some kind of routine, as well as inspiration for one (any) blog. Anyways nothing close to a consistent blog has happened to me yet.

Although I'm still trying as you can see....

But that leads me to my question - are blogs still popular? ...At all?

I still visit some blogs such as dulcecandy (don't know why and fyi is not even a blogs anymore) or leblogdebetty (let's exchange lives girl :D) but I rarely follow anyone new or hear from an 'IT' blog to follow.

I mean I guess I understand with the ever rising popularity of youtube, where you just have to talk to a camera and then show off all your new hauls and how your boyfriend does your makeup. I mean I get it. Point shoot, edit, post - Youtube is hard. But I do think writing a conscientious blogs post, editing it, choosing pics, and appealing to anyone with the old art of writing is much more difficult [Or at least more intellectual ;)]

I mean what is the point of me posting anything at all if my chances of getting even one follow is harder as the days go by.

But then again, I do want to write because it's genuinely fun and gratifying even if no one might be reading me. It just is. Plus it's something that relaxes me and makes me feel a small sense of accomplishment on these hard days :)

My Experience with Second Life Personality Disorder

When I was around 13 I moved to a very different place with my mom and sisters. I was very upset at the world for the unjust decision to deprive me of everything I had come to
know until then and replace it with everything that was foreign and unfriendly to me.

During those years I felt an overwhelming lack of desire for anything and complete hopelessness sometimes took over my days.I was looking  something that could have saved or ruined me forever. The Internet.

To start from the beginning (Kind of) I have always been the perfect candidate to fall into the hands of lameness and outside society.

I am not tall, I wear glasses, I'm very shy with strangers, I'm scared to interact with the opposite sex, I'm awkward, I'm a loner, etc etc.

Right after I moved, all these qualities only exacerbated more than I could have imagined.

I was sad, and depressed and I just needed an outlet.

And that's how the internet started.

I started developing an obsession. I spent my day immersed in it. Searching and looking and hoping to escape my reality. It was as close as I've gotten to using drugs.

I had a rush whenever I used it and when my family started getting concerned for me, I started getting defensive and a really nasty and confrontational side of me came out.

I felt attacked, and more than once I would have huge violent fits to stop their usual lectures or attempts to take my new 'precious' away from me.

At some point I saw that the whole thing was making me withdraw from the real world more and more. I was feeling more depressed than ever and I realized that escaping my reality wasn't going to solve anything. Thankfully I got out of it due to the way life turned out for me as I got older and I experienced new coming of age experiences.

I am more than sure things happen for a reason, and people like me are very vulnerable to falling into that trap. If you are in it and reading this, Do Try As Much As You Can To Find Other Outlets To Invest Your Time On. Even if you don't want to hear it Escaping is not the answer.

Work -__-

When am I going to get a permanent position? I understand that most likely the higher ups don't want to invest on benefits a permanent employees is given but I'm way beyond past a probation period.

I don't know if I should ask this, but I need some type of definite answer as to where I stand. Can't I get someone to just tell me what's going on. I hate feeling like I'm just hanging from someone's whim.

To Roomate

What I exactly don't get is how someone can be so manupalutive that they can creaate circle of friends here and there making sure to make those people feel like they mean something to you. But in the end you are just one of those people who gets close to others and once they are not fun to you anymore you drop them mid air.


We are roomates but now that I can't offer the same connections or fun times with other people, you have just moved on and have gotten yourself other friends.


What bothers me the most is the way you put yourself as someone so vulnerable and charming but in the end it seems to be pretty much an act that you put up to keep yourself entertained.


I am quite surprised that you have been able to remain good friends with anyone for longer than a couple of years.


I can't wait until we no longer live together.


Anyong you manupalitve little beast